Bittersweet Symphony

(First off.. Im going on about 2 hours of sleep so Im sure there will be some hopping, skipping, and jumping around at times. I just was typing without thinking so just bear with me.)

 

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Hello Beautiful People! ❤
Last night I had an absolutely amazing conversation with someone. It gave me that hope I was needing. It showed me not to give up on stuff. It made me believe in so much again. Showed me that sometimes people are brought into your life at just the right time when you least expect it, but its those people…they are the ones who will stay with you a lifetime. Showed me that sometimes even we don’t give ourselves enough credit and that sometimes even when we think we see and know our worth.. to others when they describe your worth and how they see you.. its so heartwarming and sometimes emotional. I know Ive made a lot of mistakes in my 27 years of life but all Ive ever wanted out of life was that when people think of me or talk about me they say “Yes.. I know Jaden.. shes an amazing friend. Shes MY friend.” I try my hardest to stay true to people and always be kind. To listen when someone needs a shoulder to cry on or just a friend to laugh with. I try my hardest to give the best advice I can give to someone. I keep promises, and secrets, and sometimes I may be brutally honest in the end its only because I love and care about them so much. If I care about you, you know it because I put 110% effort into our friendship. Sometimes in life I believe we take a lot of things for granted.. be it friendships, our partner.. family.. we take those people for granted because we believe they will never leave us. All I want to say is.. dont. Dont take those people for granted, dont take your family for granted because you never know when you will wake up and they wont be there. Dont take friendships for granted because those people are our chosen family. The ones brought into our life for a reason. Those people are the ones that help us through our darkest days, the ones who hold our hand and guide us, showing that there is in fact light at the end of the tunnel. Sometimes you just need a little patience walking there and no one wants to walk that road alone. Dont be one of those evil, malicious people who when youre walking that path.. you look to your side and you see no one standing beside you. I want you to be able to look at your side and see the ones who care about you the most. You dont have to have a 20, 30, 40 friends walking beside you. All you need is a couple who will be there to pick you up when you fall, dusting you off saying “cmon.. just a little bit further.. you got this.” And when you cant walk anymore they pick you up and carry you. Those people are once in a lifetime type people. Those people are the ones thats the hardest to come by these days, but those people are the ones you hold onto the longest and dont let go of. Those people are the ones you dont betray, dont hurt, always love. Those people are the ones who matter the most. I for one can say I am absolutely hands down one of the luckiest girls in the world. Actually.. Ill go ahead and say I AM the luckiest girl in the world because I know when I look to my side I have a few pretty extraordinary people walking beside me. They are honest, kind, loving, trustworthy. I want you to be able to say “No.. IM the luckiest, Jaden… not you.” because thats what friendships should feel like. Everyone should feel the luckiest because you are. If you have those kind of people in your life you ARE the luckiest because those people are SO hard to come by. All in all I just want to say that right now even though times may be hard, situations in your life may be really difficult you will always get through them with good people by your side. You can never get through them alone. Dont think you can. Ive been that person, Ive been the one who thought I needed to lie on the ground by myself and cry and cry thinking that the next day it would be better, when really I just fall asleep to wake up even more depressed than I was the day before. Ive been there, I know.. I know what rock bottom feels like. Everyone’s rock bottom is different from the next persons. Your lowest low you may think is lower than someone elses, but its not. Were all battling our own demons in this world. So just be kind to one another. Sometimes the smallest gesture leaves the biggest impact on people. Sometimes its exactly what they needed at that exact moment. It might not seem like much to you, but you just reaching out could might possibly save them. Be a good friend, be a good lover, be a good person and the world will shine just a little bit brighter because youre here. Be that one in a million someone was looking for. Being on Second Life I see so much hostility and hatred for one another and its really depressing to me. Now Im not a saint and im not saying I havent had my fair share of words with people, but why? Why do we do this? This is Second Life and I dont care how much you want to say your real life is so amazing that you just had to get a second one. No.. no that is not why we are here.. we all are here because it was probably boredom in the beginning.. something kept us here though. Were all battling our own problems and demons in our real life or we wouldnt continue to stick around. Then we meet incredible people who we can relate to and it seems as though everything for those few seconds in the world is fine. We get lost and forget about how crappy our work day was because we have these amazing friends to lean on. Be one of those amazing friends.. be kind and loving and be that person that whenever someone sees you sign in they get excited and they want to spend time just around you because you light up a room. Ive said this once before and Ill say it again. Second Life can be the most lonely place on the planet if youre alone.. but you dont have to be in a relationship to make it incredible. Surrounding yourself with loving friends make it amazing. And without friends to help us get by each day what do we have left? Second Life is our escape from reality. When things get rough you can sign in and be, do, or go practically anywhere you want to. Wanna go to the Grand Canyon? They have it. Want to spend a night in Vegas, Hawaii, Cali, New York, Hawaii? You can do all those things and it can be so much fun if you have the right people around you. Just be the best you that I know you can be. I know Second Life isnt full of rainbows and puppies all the time, its extremely hard to find someone you can trust 100%. Ive met my fair share of just evil people and that makes me sad. Evil people who have something going on in real life so they get on second life to take it out on others, evil people who think they are better than everyone else and find a need to throw it in your face all the time. Evil people who pretend to be something or someone they arent and mess with your emotions on so many levels. Evil people who continue for years to try and make someones life just absolute hell by cyber bullying them to the point they just want life to end. Evil people who act like they care and with a smiling face listen but have that knife behind their back just waiting for you to turn. Evil people who take advantage of your kindness and have no conscience screwing you over in the end. I dont understand that at all. Why do you want to be someone like that? These are all things Ive seen in Second Life. Things Ive witnessed or heard with my own ears. Why on earth would you want to be remembered as someone like that? It really breaks my heart. All in all this post is just me venting about friendship and how others see you. And how much I know you can shine even if youre a little reserved, sometimes you just need to let your hair down and go with it. Sometimes I know we give up on hope because so many people let us down. We give up on hope for humanity, love, being happy. Its hard, I know.. like Ive said Ive been there. Last nights conversation with a friend was such an eye opener for me. What sticks with people is how you make them feel when they are around you. How much you make them laugh, or be it the simple things like just spending quality time with you not even saying a word. The smallest gestures.. the random hugs or kisses. Those things stick with people and if youre the best you that you can be… well then you will never be alone. The best thing about Second Life is you dont have to be the prettiest, the skinniest, the fastest, the strongest.. or even the bravest to be the best you, you can be to someone else. No one cares about the outside appearance of you. Its the inside they see, they talk to, they laugh with. Thats what matter and thats what people will remember about you. Ill leave you with this.. The human spirit is not measured by the size of the act, but by the size of the heart. That really is bittersweet, isnt it?

 

Also.. today would have been my grandpa’s birthday if he were still alive. I dedicate this post to him because I would like to thank he’s very proud of the person I have become. Happy Birthday, Pap! I love you and miss you more than words could say. I know youre probably having an amazing birthday in heaven. I hope youre spending it fishing with my other grandpa and grandma. Tell them I love and miss them both too. ♥

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