A look into my life these past few weeks..

This is literally what my life has consisted of the past couple of weeks. Me, food, some coffee, and a computer with tons of books scattered around. Trying to stay up to date with school work has me going insane the past few weeks. The month of March wasn’t the best. It started out good with my husbands birthday party, but after that… March can suck a dick. At the beginning of the month, my family was faced with another scary moment with my mom. She was diagnosed with Uterine Cancer. Luckily we caught it all in its very very early stages so all that was needed was a complete hysterectomy. Needless to say, it put my life in a crazy spiral again. Everything got put on the back burner while I tried to process this event taking place in our lives. And in that mix was blogging, school, and my relationship even suffered at times. My husband tho… he’s the biggest trooper and has the most patience I’ve ever known someone to have when it comes to me and my issues going on. I have to give him praise because through everything he’s been my rock and stuck by my side when he could have easily run. To be honest, I wanted to run away from me at times so I wouldn’t have blamed him if he did leave. I love him more than he will ever, ever, ever know. Good news is after the surgery we got the best news anyone could have ever wanted. She doesn’t need to undergo chemo or any type of radiation. Praise the Lord. God is so so so incredibly good all of the time.

I’m declaring the month of April will be so much better to me, my mom especially, my family, and my husband. School has less than a month left and hopefully, I can get all these papers, exams, and homework finished before its all said and done. And soon I will be planning a trip out to see my handsome husband in real life.. so that’s something to look forward to. My stomach feels full of butterflies and anxiety when I think about it, but ill save all of that for another blog post in the future lol.

With all of that being said I shall give you what you came here for in the first place.. the credits to this outfit.

I hope April has been good to you so far and continues to be even better as the days pass.

Thank you to everyone for sticking around with me on this journey the past 6 months or so where everything has been a little crazy. I appreciate you so much.

All of my love,


[[*Credits*]]

Top: [Cynful] Clothing & Co. “One Sleeve Knot Top” {NEW!} @ Collabor88 April Round

Shorts: Villena “Ripped Bermuda Shorts”

Glasses: Lost Kings “Krazy Faith Shadez”

Necklace: Kibitz “Lucrecia Necklace”

Hair: Navy + Copper “Cheesecake”

[[*Décor*]]

Peaches “Tap that App Laptop”

Iconic “Phone and stuff”

Apple Fall “Magazine Files”

Junk Food “Milk Chocolate Bar”

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“Denial”

I tried to change. Closed my mouth more, tried to be softer, prettier, less awake. Fasted for 60 days, wore white, abstained from mirrors, abstained from sex, slowly did not speak another word. In that time, my hair, I grew past my ankles. I slept on a mat on the floor. I swallowed a sword. I levitated. Went to the basement, confessed my sins, and was baptized in a river. I got on my knees and said ‘amen’ and said ‘I mean.’

I whipped my own back and asked for dominion at your feet. I threw myself into a volcano. I drank the blood and drank the wine. I sat alone and begged and bent at the waist for God. I crossed myself and thought I saw the devil. I grew thickened skin on my feet, I bathed in bleach, and plugged my menses with pages from the holy book, but still inside me, coiled deep, was the need to know … Are you cheating on me?

Cheating?

Are you cheating on me?


[[*Clothing*]]
Shirt: .:Villena:. “Torn Cropped Shirt” (Black)
Shorts: SEUL “Snap Shorts” (Red)
Hair: [RunAway] “Samatha Hair” {NEW!} @ FaMESHed May 18′
Shoes: REIGN “GEM’D Slides”
Socks: REIGN “Striped White Crew Socks”
Glasses: BALACLAVA!! “Olivia Readers & Shades” (Gold)
[[*Decor & Pose*]]
FOXCITY PhotoBooth “Boi Bye” ((EXCLUSIVE)) {NEW!} @ Equal10
FOXCITY “Boi Bye” Poses (#7m) {NEW!} @ Equal10
[High V] “Hot Sauce”